Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Create a Book Safe






   Just what can you do with that old Daniel Steele Novel you NEVER READ?! How about making a secret safe out of it? You can do it with a sharp box cutter if you are careful! This is time consuming AND DANGEROUS!!! CHILDREN NEED ADULT SUPERVISION!!! BETTER YET, HAVE MOM AND DAD DO IT INSTEAD!!!

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I'm starting with a small section in the middle just in case of mistakes, then I can hollow the entire book out.

USE TWO HANDS. BE CAREFUL!!!




Now you can see a little more progress.

  Final cut before smoothing out the edges and epoxy gluing pages together. Now it can hold an iphone with camera turned on if you make a hole.
Still looks like one of Daniel Steeles best novels.


The Book of Storms ~ Judoa Tai Alexander ~ Stage two review

Stage Two Review

1. The goal of stage two is to educate yourself about the basics of empathic language.
2. The conscious mind communicates with words for language. The unconscious mind communicates with associations through symbols, images, archetypes, and feelings.
3. There are five "letters" to the empathic alphabet. Beta, Alpha, Theta, Delta, and Gamma. These letters also act as "rules of grammar" for understanding the flow of Dreamtongue.
4. The five letters are symbolized by Tibetan Tattwas: the yellow square for Beta, the silver crescent for Alpha, the red triangle for Theta, the blue circle for Delta, and the purple oval for Gamma. This association provides a geometric link, or visual dimension to Dreamtongue.
The five letters represent the five levels of empathic functioning which are related to brain wave functions and empathic functions:
  • Beta: rapid brain waves, mind over matter; the continuum between consciousness and matter.
  • Alpha: relaxed, relaxing brain waves; empathic sensitivity, psychometry, blind sensing, intuition.
  • Theta: REM brainwaves,  telepathy, empathic dreams, empathic hearing.
  • Delta: profoundly slow, deep brain waves, empathic source, empathic seeing (clairvoyance).
  • Gamma: pure consciousness as unified field effect, precognition, retrocognition. 

6. Dreamtongue is the result of all of these levels interacting with one another on a continuous basis. All levels are active at all times but specific states are more conducive to accessing a particular level. I have tied in classic psychic terms, such as "telepathy" and "clairvoyance" for a reason.
Becoming a fully actualized Empath involves a total integration of the personality with one's abilities and the understanding of one's abilities. To become an awakened Empath is to "become whole", first and foremost. So the subject of psychic phenomenon is not treated as a separate category in this beginning course.

Ø Keypoint: Now, to reach amazing levels of empathic awareness within yourself, I want you to stop thinking of intuition and psychic perception as "abilities," and start thinking of them as a form of language. This is the secret discovered by my work in the School of Empath Psychology. This is what will accelerate your learning and your development as a fully actualized Empath.
NOTE: If you have made good use of this lesson please share your experience with others in the group. Examples can be the best conduits for learning.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Stage two recap




  I noticed it is easier for me to focus and read after I have done some type of house work, I discovered the secret. I'm not done with stage two yet, but I like how it talks about how the conscious and unconscious mind  looks at a Christmas tree. This can also be how we view negative things, your house is messy and your conscious mind views it as a mess, when the subconscious sees the steps on how to clean it up step by step.

  I was diagnosed as ADD/ADHD, just as my mother was. I think a lot of Empaths are. But I successfully cleaned my kitchen yesterday. I wanted to post a free energy healing offer but I'm not sure if it is still being offered. It's for the 29th of this month and I am signed up. If you would like to go to the Empath Community and inquire about it, be my guest. You can find the link to their website through the Empath test.

  

Saturday, January 18, 2014

The Book of Storms ~Lessons in Dreamtongue Stage two by Jadoa Tai Alexander



   The Basics of Empathic Language



Dreamtongue is the language of the unconscious, the language of dreams and the empathic levels of the mind. Here I want to give you working definitions of the terms conscious and unconscious. This is the foundation of the language.


The conscious mind is the part of you that uses words to think and to deal with information. The conscious mind involves all those things of which you are aware at any given moment. The normal flow of the conscious mind deals with sensory input from the eyes, ears, nose, taste buds, and sense of touch.
The conscious mind is synthesized from the verbal centers of the brain, the language centers. Any thought or perception organized by words, by language, and, of which you are aware, is occurring in your conscious mind.
Remember the analogy that your waking mind is the Sun? The Sun provides light and light is awareness. When you become aware of something it has entered your conscious mind.


The unconscious mind deals with information as well but does not directly use words. You process stimuli without words and it is this processing that I am referring to as the unconscious.  It is still possible to receive information without being aware of it. The classic example is that you can be sitting in a room with a clock ticking and not be aware of the sound. Your ears still pick up the sound but you are not paying attention to it, therefore no thought is attached to it. In other words, it does not enter your conscious mind.
Another example might be that subtle shifts in temperature and motion occur when someone is walking up from behind you, but you are not consciously aware of that person. Your own body chemistry and nervous system may respond to those shifts but no thought is attached to them. You are then receiving information about a person coming up behind you but not from what you see or hear directly. This information is being processed through your unconscious mind, your nonverbal centers.
The potential for receiving information in this way is proprioception. Some people have used proprioception to explain away empathic abilities but in so doing they are throwing the baby out with the bathwater. Proprioception is just the tip of the iceberg, the tip of the unconscious mind.
The unconscious goes much deeper than proprioception. Anything that is occurring within your body is part of your unconscious. In fact, to truly understand and define the unconscious would be to say that your body itself is the unconscious!
You are all mind and all body. There is no separation from the two. Once you work with that understanding you will be amazed at how much empathic information has been knocking at your door, just waiting for you to open that door! The world of infinite possibilities opens up when you understand that mind and body are one thing.  Yet our language cuts the two in apart no matter how carefully  we choose our words.
Just as the conscious mind links to the verbal centers of the brain, the unconscious links into the associational centers. The associational centers are more like the memory of things seen or the memory of things heard, rather than being involved with actual seeing and hearing.
Now this is important: the associational centers form the channel between the conscious mind and the unconscious mind. This is the place where the small still voice within originates. The dialogue inside of this channel is the dream voice, the place where Dreamtongue occurs.


To break these definitions of conscious and unconscious down into usable forms I will say the following: The conscious mind communicates with words as language; the unconscious mind communicates with associations as language.
When you look at a decorated Christmas tree your senses tell you that it is a green tree with objects attached to it. It is probably not doing anything other than holding still and blinking with small lights. Yet, a deeper perception of the tree is occurring involving all types of feelings that are the result of associations.
When you look at a Christmas tree you do not just see a tree with objects on it, you see Christmas past and present, you have many feelings of all sorts, you associate it with all types of experiences.
Since you have probably had a lot of practice with responding to Christmas trees, most of your associations to the tree flow readily into your conscious mind. When you are not aware of those associations they remain dormant in your unconscious.
Empathic information, by definition, originates within your unconscious. It usually stays there unless it creates an impulse strong enough to surface in some fashion. Empathic information does not have the direct link to sight and hearing as does sensory information.
Sensory information communicates to you externally then is taken internally for processing. Empathic information works exactly the opposite. Empathic information originates internally and then can be communicated externally. Empathic information is by definition, always a response to something


Too often people try to measure empathic information by the same standards as sensory information. It is equivalent to the fellow looking for his keys under the lamp because there is more light. It does not work to treat empathic information and sensory information as the same phenomenon. Therefore you cannot use the same instruments or procedures to measure them.
Dreamtongue is the language of the unconscious, the language of dreams, of symbols and associations, of archetypes, and the levels of empathic awareness. It is a language rich in meaning and impact on our lives. Normal verbal language is very limited by comparison.
Dreamtongue is like communicating in holograms. A hologram is a special type of photography that produces a three dimensional image. If the photographic plate is shattered into pieces, each piece is capable of producing the full three dimensional image of the original. Each piece contains the essence of the whole.
Advanced theorists in science and philosophy have proposed that the universe itself is one singular hologram of which we are all a part. Each part then contains the essence of the whole. Dreamtongue speaks with symbols and associations that are in effect holograms. Any part of Dreamtongue contains the essence of every other part, so if you only get a tiny bit of information, that tiny bit contains the entire message. With all of this said, Dreamtongue is remarkably simple and beautiful.
After many years of working with my own empathic perceptions and those of my students I have discovered that there are five primary levels of empathic perception. These five levels constitute the "grammar" of Dreamtongue. Just as in verbal language there are nouns, verbs, adjectives, etc., in Dreamtongue there are betas, thetas, alphas, etc. Learning about these levels and the "mechanics" of the language will help you speak and interpret the language. I also refer to these categories as the "alphabet" for intuitive language, emphasizing the holographic interchangeability within each piece of information.
Yet it is not imperative that you memorize the structure and parts of Dreamtongue, unless you want to teach Dreamtongue. Once you begin working with it you will find that it is a "living" force which empowers you naturally. It is your own natural language, coming from your heart, your soul, and all levels of your being. So study the parts and mechanics but do not be bogged down by the words. The words are to help your conscious mind become more open and receptive to empathic language.
In this lesson you will pass through stage two of your preliminary training by learning about the five primary empathic levels and the types of communication that originates from each level. Throughout this course you will learn each distinctive level and then by stage eight you will learn how each level weaves into the amazing empathic language of Dreamtongue.


The Five Levels of Dreamtongue

In normal language you learn parts of speech and the rules for using the language. First you learn the alphabet, then small words, then more words, and eventually how to put the words together.
Learning about the five levels of Dreamtongue is just like learning the empathic alphabet. The empathic alphabet is simpler because it only has five letters! These five letters also constitute a set of "grammar rules" for the flow of Dreamtongue.
Sounds incredible that such a powerful language has only five letters, but remember that the language is holographic. An entire message is available in one bit of information. To make the empathic alphabet usable by the conscious mind I have used Greek letters to describe them. Please note: I am not utilizing the Greek letters to parallel any other system which also refers to Greek letters.
The five letters of the empathic alphabet are (in order): Beta, Alpha, Theta, Delta, and Gamma. It is not important here to know the actual Greek letters for we are not talking normal written language. Remember Dreamtongue works by associations, not by literal definition.
To keep these five letters distinct as empathic language I have paired or associated them with five images from a traditional empathic teaching, the five Tattwas from the Tibetan magickal traditions. This association comes from my efforts to weave together the fine connection between Eastern and Western insight through the field of Empath Psychology.  Dreamtongue has it's roots in Eastern and Western Mysticicism, serious metaphysical schools of thought and philosophy, and especially Transpersonal Psychology.
If you continue your study and progress into a detailed analysis of the Chakra system, you will find the associations between the five empathic levels and the Chakras to be quite profound.
The association between the brain wave patterns, the empathic levels, and the Tattwa symbols may seem arbitrary at first, but one you have a solid grasp of those symbols you will be ready to learn an amazing silent language.


The Basics:

Beta -- is symbolized by the yellow square Tattwa
Alpha -- is symbolized by the silver crescent Tattwa
Theta -- is symbolized by the red triangle Tattwa
Delta -- is symbolized by the blue circle Tattwa
Gamma -- is symbolized by the purple oval Tattwa
Now you have the five letters of the empathic alphabet. At this point they have no real meaning to you. When you first learned your ABC's you simply copied them down or recited them because the teacher asked you to do so. Eventually you found out that you put the letters together to spell the words you use.
Dreamtongue originates from how your mind/body whole communicates and functions. Next I have tied the empathic alphabet into brain waves. Brain waves change as your activity and state of being changes. There are four general levels of brain waves that relate to the empathic alphabet and a fifth category which is unique to Dreamtongue.
Beta (association: yellow square)prithiv
Beta (association: yellow square)
When the brain is aroused and actively engaged in cognitive or mental activities, it generates beta waves. Beta waves are of relatively low amplitude, and are the fastest of the four different brainwaves. The frequency of beta waves ranges from 15 to 40 cycles a second.  The level of brain wave activity for each state is not critical information here. I mention it just to show that the brain does divide into levels of functioning but mainly to show that we are using symbolic associations for those levels, rather than scientific measures.  I encourage research into brain wave activities if you wish to advance your studies.
When you are actively engaged in a conversation you are generating beta waves. A person delivering a passionate speech is in a high beta state. In Dreamtongue, Beta is your conscious waking state. The more active and alert you are the more Beta you generate. Beta is the mainframe for the software in your brain, in other words, the "foundation" for your conscious mind.

Alpha (association: silver crescent)apas
Alpha (association: silver crescent)
Alpha brainwaves are slower and higher in amplitude. Their frequency ranges from 9 to 14 cycles per second. You are generating alphas when you relax, are near day dreaming, near sleep, or just entering sleep.
The most intense Alpha state is the hynogogic state, which is right before you fall asleep. Alpha is fertile ground for empathic receptivity; it is the primary channel of empathic awareness.

Theta (association: red triangle)tejas
Theta (association: red triangle)
Theta brainwaves, are typically of even greater amplitude and slower frequency than Alpha waves. This frequency range is normally between 5 and 8 cycles a second. You normally only generate thetas when you are in deep sleep or in the middle of a powerful meditation.
The R.E.M (rapid eye movement) stage of sleep and dreaming are associated with Theta. Theta is the inner screen upon which you view empathic information and imagery.

Deltavayu
Delta
Delta brainwaves are of the greatest amplitude and slowest frequency. They typically range from 1.5 to 4 cycles per second. Typically, 2 to 3 cycles a second.
You generate deltas when you are in deep dreamless sleep, so deep that it would be difficult to wake you. It is also possible to generate deltas when you are in profound states of meditation and altered states of consciousness. Fully actualized and trained Empaths can generate a Delta state with their eyes open.

Gammaakasa
Gamma
Gamma is distinct from the above four states. Delta involves brain waves at 1 to 4 cycles per second. So it seems we have run out of brain waves doesn't it?
Gamma is not associated with specific brain wave states; rather it is the source state of consciousness. It is the potential for consciousness and the potential for any brain wave state. It is the holographic potential of the mind expressed as a unified field, the mental equivalent of "implicate order" a concept you will be introduced to in later lessons.
Gamma is the source of consciousness which eludes the microscope and the trained eye. You generate gamma simply by "being". Gamma is not identified in other systems, it is unique to Dreamtongue.
Let's look at what you have learned so far. There are five letters of the empathic alphabet. Each one is labeled with a Greek letter. Each letter is symbolized by a Tattwa symbol. Each symbol relates roughly to a brain wave state. The final part of this lesson ties in specific types of empathic functioning related to each empathic letter.
Beta is related to empathic activity expressed through the physical body and through physical objects. Beta events are psychokinesis, mind over matter, influence by thought, moving objects with the mind, etc.
What normally comes to mind with Beta events are images of someone willing the needle of a compass to move, or bending spoons, or the more dramatic idea of levitation. Yet psychokinesis or telekinesis is better understood through phenomenon like empathic healing.
The ability of your empathic mind to influence your own body and the body of another better captures the nature of Beta. Beta messages are discussed in the following chapter.
Alpha is related to general empathic sensitivity. The Alpha state is a more receptive state than Beta. Beta "generates," Alpha 'receives."  In Beta the waking mind you are more in a state of generating or sending out signals. In the Alpha state you are opening up your awareness to greater degrees of receptivity.
In Alpha you become more aware of internal signals and can better focus on your dream voice. You are tuning out some of the outside world and are listening in to the internal word of the unconscious.
The Alpha level relates to generalized types of empathic functioning like sensing emotions, sensing danger, unusual feelings that are "signals", general or vague intuition, hunches, and feelings in general are Alpha messages.
Theta is what I like to call "psychic" central. It is the place where empathic information is processed. When you are asleep and dreaming a vivid dream you are in a Theta state and in that state empathic information is woven into the fabric of the dream.
Theta involves mind to mind communication, or telepathy. Telepathy is when two people speak Dreamtongue to each other at the Theta level. Telepathy is possible between all living things plant or animal. Telepathy involves the process of listening or empathic hearing.
It is not a matter of "reading another person's mind," which is more of a stage trick. It is the result of two or more nervous systems becoming synchronized or linked in some fashion. The communication can involve thinking the same or similar thoughts or having the same feelings, physical or emotional. Theta is the "point" where we connect with others.
Delta is the source of all the empathic information that is processed in Theta. Here information exists as holograms, composites, and gestalts. Delta is related to the very function of empathic perceiving. It is the level of empathic vision or "clairvoyance."
Here information comes as pictures, images, and symbols, all which contain information that can be translated into feelings, thoughts, and words. Delta is the sleeping Empath within you. Sleeping because it is shut off from the senses but very active and very powerful within your unconscious.
Gamma is the level that baffles everyone and even eludes the serious researchers of parapsychology. Gamma is the place beyond all of our senses and awareness. From Gamma comes perception of future and past events. It cannot be clearly defined nor can it be fully controlled.
The previous four levels of empathic functioning relate to the interconnectedness between living things. The abilities of precognition, seeing into the future, and retrocognition, seeing into the past, result from an understanding of existence that is not available to our conscious minds. Although a veritable universe of speculation exists in this area, I encourage you to keep an open mind with regards to explaining Gamma phenomenon.
At the Gamma level we enter the world of metaphysical and spiritual knowledge, something that best communicated through Dreamtongue, through symbols, myths, archetypes, ideas, and associations. Dreamtongue involves at first a deep understanding and connection with Gamma, then in the advanced stages, it involves a very careful and deliberate use of words and images to evoke and process information.

All five levels of empathic functioning do not occur independently of each other. They are all happening at the same time within you right now. You learn them separately but eventually you merge your understanding of them all working in unison. The Delta state is active within you right now even though you are not in a deep sleep, but it is active in the unconscious.
Each part of your self communicates with every other part creating a continuous flow of Dreamtongue. In the following chapters you will learn how to understand and develop each level so that you too will learn the exquisite nature of empathic language.

Stage Two Review

1. The goal of stage two is to educate yourself about the basics of empathic language.
2. The conscious mind communicates with words for language. The unconscious mind communicates with associations through symbols, images, archetypes, and feelings.
3. There are five "letters" to the empathic alphabet. Beta, Alpha, Theta, Delta, and Gamma. These letters also act as "rules of grammar" for understanding the flow of Dreamtongue.
4. The five letters are symbolized by Tibetan Tattwas: the yellow square for Beta, the silver crescent for Alpha, the red triangle for Theta, the blue circle for Delta, and the purple oval for Gamma. This association provides a geometric link, or visual dimension to Dreamtongue.
The five letters represent the five levels of empathic functioning which are related to brain wave functions and empathic functions:
  • Beta: rapid brain waves, mind over matter; the continuum between consciousness and matter.
  • Alpha: relaxed, relaxing brain waves; empathic sensitivity, psychometry, blind sensing, intuition.
  • Theta: REM brainwaves,  telepathy, empathic dreams, empathic hearing.
  • Delta: profoundly slow, deep brain waves, empathic source, empathic seeing (clairvoyance).
  • Gamma: pure consciousness as unified field effect, precognition, retrocognition.
6. Dreamtongue is the result of all of these levels interacting with one another on a continuous basis. All levels are active at all times but specific states are more conducive to accessing a particular level. I have tied in classic psychic terms, such as "telepathy" and "clairvoyance" for a reason.
Becoming a fully actualized Empath involves a total integration of the personality with one's abilities and the understanding of one's abilities. To become an awakened Empath is to "become whole", first and foremost. So the subject of psychic phenomenon is not treated as a separate category in this beginning course.

Ø Keypoint: Now, to reach amazing levels of empathic awareness within yourself, I want you to stop thinking of intuition and psychic perception as "abilities," and start thinking of them as a form of language. This is the secret discovered by my work in the School of Empath Psychology. This is what will accelerate your learning and your development as a fully actualized Empath.
NOTE: If you have made good use of this lesson please share your experience with others in the group. Examples can be the best conduits for learning.

Poems by the late great Jim Morisson

THE OPENING OF THE TRUNK

Moment of inner freedom
when the mind is opened and the
infinite universe revealed
& the soul is left to wander
dazed & confus'd searching
here & there for teachers & friends.

Moment of Freedom
as the prisoner
blinks in the sun
like a mole
from his hole

a child's 1st trip
away from home

That moment of Freedom

LAmerica
Cold treatment of our empress
LAmerica
The Transient Universe
LAmerica
Instant communion and
communication
lamerica
emeralds in glass
lamerica
searchlights at twi-light
lamerica
stoned streets in the pale dawn
lamerica
robed in exile
lamerica
swift beat of a proud heart
lamerica
eyes like twenty
lamerica
swift dream
lamerica
frozen heart
lamerica
soldiers doom
lamerica
clouds & struggles
lamerica
Nighthawk
doomed from the start
lamerica
"That's how I met her,
lamerica
lonely and frozen
lamerica
& sullen, yes
lamerica
right from the start"

Then stop.
Go.
The wilderness between.
Go round the march.

he enters stage:

Blood boots. Killer storm.
Fool's gold. God in a heaven.
Where is she?
Have you seen her?
Has anyone seen this girl?
snap shot (projected)
She's my sister.
Ladies & gentlemen:
please attend carefully to these words & events
It's your last chance, our last hope.
In this womb or tomb, we're free of the swarming streets.
The black fever which rages is safely out those doors
My friends & I come from
Far Arden w/ dances, &
new music
Everywhere followers accrue
to our procession.
Tales of Kings, gods, warriors
and lovers dangled like
jewels for your careless pleasure

I'm Me!
Can you dig it.
My meat is real.
My hands--how they move
balanced like lithe demons
My hair--so twined and writhing
The skin of my face--pinch the cheeks
My flaming sword tongue
spraying verbal fire-flys
I'm real.
I'm human
But I'm not an ordinary man
No No No

What are you doing here?
What do you want?
Is it music?
We can play music.
But you want more.
You want something & someone new.
Am I right?
Of course I am.
You want ecstasy
Desire & dreams.
Things not exactly what they seem.
I lead you this way, he pulls that way.
I'm not singing to an imaginary girl.
I'm talking to you, my self.
Let's recreate the world.
The palace of conception is burning.

Look. See it burn.
Bask in the warm hot coals.

You're too young to be old
You don't need to be told
You want to see things as they are.
You know exactly what I do
Everything

I am a guide to the Labyrinth

Monarch of the protean towers
on this cool stone patio
above the iron mist
sunk in its own waste
breathing its own breath

POWER

I can make the earth stop in
its tracks. I made the
blue cars go away.

I can make myself invisible or small.
I can become gigantic & reach the
farthest things. I can change
the course of nature.
I can place myself anywhere in
space or time.
I can summon the dead.
I can perceive events on other worlds,
in my deepest inner mind,
& in the minds of others.

I can

I am

People need Connectors
Writers, heroes, stars, leaders
To give life form.
A child's sand boat facing
the sun.
Plastic soldiers in the miniature
dirt war. Forts.
Garage Rocket Ships

Ceremonies, theatre, dances
To reassert Tribal needs & memories
a call to worship, uniting
above all, a reversion,
a longing for family & the
safety magic of childhood

The grand highway
is
crowded
w/
lovers
&
searchers
&
leavers
so
eager
to
please
&
forget.

Wilderness

Now is blessed
The rest
remembered

A man rakes leaves into
a heap in his pard, a plie,
& leans on his rake &
burns them utterly.
The fragrance fills the forest
children pause & heed the
smell, which will become
nostalgia in several years

Sirens
Water
Rain & Thunder
Jet from the base
Hot searing insect cry
The frogs & crickets
Doors open & close
The smash of glass
The Soft Parade
An accident
Rustle of silk, nylon
Watering the dry grass
Fire
Bells
Rattlesnake, whistles, castanets
Lawn mower
Good Humor man
Skates & wagons
Bikes

Where'd you learn about
Satan-out of a book
Love?-out of a box

night of sin (The Fall)
-1st sex, a feeling of having
done this same act in time before
O No, not again

Between childhood, boyhood,
adolescence
& manhood (maturity) there
should be sharp lines drawn w/
Tests, deaths, feats, rites
stories, songs, & judgements

Men who go out on ships
To escape sin & the mire of cities
watch the placenta of evening stars
from the deck, on their backs
& cross the equator
& perform rituals to exhume the dead
dangerous initiation
To mark passage to new levels

To feel on the verge of an exorcism
a rite of passage
To wait, or seek manhood
enlightenment in a gun

To kill childhood, innocence
in an instant

LAMERICA

Trade-routes
guide lines
The Vikings & explorers
Discoverers
The unconscious

a map of the states
The veins of hiways
Beauty of a map
Hidden connections
Fast trampled forest

Madness in a whisper
neon crackle
The hiss of trees
A city growls

rich vast & sullen
like a slow monster
come to fat
& die

THE ANATOMY OF ROCK

The 1st electric wildness came
over the people
on sweet Friday.
Sweat was in the air.
The channel beamed,
token of power.
Incense brewed darkly.
Who could tell them that here
it would end?

One school bus crashed w/ a train.
This was the Crossroads.
Mercury stained.
I couldn't get out of my seat.
The road was littered
w/ dead jitterbugs.
Help,
we'll be late for class.

The secret flurry of rumor
marched over the yard &
pinned us unwittingly
Mt. fever.
A girl stripped naked on the
base of the flagpole.

In the restrooms all was cool
& silent
w/ the salt-green of latrines.
Blankets were needed.

Ropes fluttered.
Smiles flattered
& haunted.

Lockers pried open
& secrets discovered.

Ah sweet music.

Wild sounds in the night
Angel siren voices.
The baying of great hounds.
Cars screaming thru gears
& shrieks
on the wild road
Where the tires skip & slide
into dangerous curves.

Favorite corners.
Cheerleaders raped in summer
buildings.
Holding hands
& bopping toward Sunday.

Those lean sweet desperate hours.

Time searched the hallways
for a mind.
Hands kept time.
The climate altered like a
visible dance.

Night-time women.
Wondrous sacraments of doubt
Sprang sullen in bursts
of fear & guilt
in the womb's pit hole
below
The belt of the beast

Worship w/ words, w/
sounds, hands, all
joyful playful &
obscene-in the insane
infant.

Old men worship w/ long
noses, old soulful eyes.
Young girls worship,
exotic, indian, w/ robes
who make us feel foolish
for acting w/ our eyes.
Lost in the vanity of the senses
which got us where we are.
Children worship but seldom
act at it. Who needs
temples & couches & T.V.

We can do it on a sunny
floor w/ friends & make
any sound or movement
that comes. Roll on our
backs screaming w/ mirth
glad in the guilt of our
madness. Better to be
cool in our worship &
gain the respect of the
ancient & wise wearing
those robes. They know
the secret of mind-change
reality.


"Have you ever seen God?"
-a mandala. A symmetrical angel.

Felt? yes. Fucking. The Sun.
Heard? Music. Voices.
Touched? an animal. your hand.
Tasted? Rare meat, corn, water,
& wine.

An angel runs
Thru the sudden light
Thru the room
A ghost precedes us
A shadow follows us
And each time we stop
We fall

No one thought up being;
he who thinks he has
Step forward

Shrill demented sparrows bark
The sun into being. They rule
dawn's kingdom. The cars-
a rising chorus- Then
workmen's songs & hammers
The children of the schoolyard,
a hundred high voices,
complete the orchestration

"In that year there was
an intense visitation
of energy.
I left school & went down
to the beach to live.
I slept on a roof
At night the moon became
a woman's face.
I met the Spirit of Music."

An appearance of the devil
on a Venice canal.
Running, I saw a Satan
or Satyr, moving beside
me, a fleshy shadow
of my secret mind. Running,
Knowing.

The day I left the beach

A hairy Satyr running
behind & a little to the
right.

In the holy solipsism
of the young

Now I can't walk thru a city
street w/out eying each
single pedestrian. I feel
their vibes thru my
skin, the hair on my neck
-it rises.

THE FEAR
Eternal consciousness
in the Void
(makes trial and jail seem almost
friendly)

a Kiss in the Storm

(Madman at the wheel
gun at the neck
scape populous & arching
coolly)

A barn
a cabin attic

Your own face
stationary
in the mirrored window

fear of restroom's
Tragic cold
neon

I'm freezing

animals
dead

white wings of
rabbits

grey velvet deer

The Canyon

The car a craft
in wretched
SPACE

Sudden movements

& your past
to warm you
in Spiritless
Night

The Lonely HWY
Cold hiker

Afraid of wolves
& his own
Shadow

The Wolf,
Who lives under the rock
has invited me
to drink of his cool
Water.
Not to splash or bathe
But leave the sun
& know the dead desert
night
& the cold men
who play there.

a ha
Come on, now
luring the Traveler
Mighty Voyager
Curious, into its dark womb
The graves grinning
Indians of night
The eyes of night
Westward lurking
into the brothel, into the blood bath
into the Dream
The dark Dream of conquest
& Voyage
into night, Westward into Night

LAMERICA

Clothed in sunlight
restled in waiting
dying of fever

Changed shapes of an empire
Starling invaders
Vast promissory notes of joy

Wanton, willful & passive
Married to doubt
Clothed in great warring monuments
of glory

How it has changed you
How slowly estranged you
Solely arranged you

Beg you for mercy

The Crossraods
a place where ghosts
reside to whisper into
the ears of travellers &
interest them in their fate

Hitchhiker drinks:
"I call again on the dark
hidden gods of blood"

-Why do you call us?
You know our price. It
never changes. Death of
you will give you life
& free you from a vile
fate. But it is getting late.

-If I could see you again
& talk w/ you, & walk a
short while in your company,
& drink the heady brew
of your conversations,
I thought

-to rescue a soul already
ruined. To achieve respite.
To plunder green gold
on a pirate raid & bring
to camp the glory of old.

-As the capesman faces
poisoned horns & drinks
red victory; the soldier,
too, w/ his trophy, a
pierced helmet; & the
ledge-walker shuddering
his way into inward grace

-(laughter) Well, then. Would
you mock yourself?

-No.

-Soon our voices must become
one, or one must leave.

Forest strong sandals
burnt geometry fingers
around a fire
reading history in blackened
books, charcoal silence
in moot splendor

Flame-tree
Sire, we met in Eden
The troubled time
we had
rustling in the night leaves
a sniper aimed at our window
a kitten mewing in the blasted
strong air
I must go see

-You've found your Voice,
friend, after all else
I recognize fast the
Strong sure tones of
a poet
was it a question
Search or of strangling?
I wonder
We never talked
But welcome here
to the camp fire
Share our meal
w/ us
& tell us of your life
& the hanging

-Well 1st I screamed
& I was a child again alive
Then nothing til the age
of 5

& then summers & the racetrack
I looked for a girl in
New Mexican
bars
& found jail
The prostitute looked out
her cell & saw
Fuck god scratched
on a leprous wall

-You're rambling boy
what of the rest
the jazz highway
he winks.

-I got picked up
& rode through the night

-did you see any buildings

-did I...
What was I doing
of course we danced plenty
She had nice sides
the cop hit me
Stop, I don't remember

-The logs are melting
we must move on
The fire's ending
we'll hear more
at the next altar

[musical interlude]

Trees
Train-death
The American Night
We went through 5 cords
of wood this winter

-he told me beautiful stories
& had the most beautiful visions
He was a truly religious man
at the end

-you know, I like you guys
god-damn!

(I saw this cat run out
of the ocean, one night,
and beat-off into a fire)

I'm going down to Mexico
To this border town I heard
about & I'm gonna buy
me a girl & bring her
back up here & marry her, it's
true. This guy told me.
A friend of his knew someone who

-You're too much

There was preserved
in her
The fresh miracle
of
surprise

open

The Night is young
& full of rest
I can't describe
the way she's dress'd
She'll pander to some strange
requests
Anything that you suggest
Anything to please her guest

SIRENS

Midnight
criminal metabolism of guilt forest
Rattlesnakes whistles catcalls

Remove me from this hall of mirrors
This filthy glass

Are you her
Do you look like that
How could you be when
no one ever could

Poet of the call-girl storm

She left a note on the bedroom door.
"If I'm out, bring me to."

I dropped by to see you
late last night
But you were out
like a light
Your head was on the floor
& rats played pool w/ your eyes

Death is a good disguise
for late at night

Wrapping all its games in its calm garden

But what happens
when the guests return
& all unmask
& you are asked
to leave
for want of a smile

I'll still take you then
But I'm your friend

ODE
NEW YORK MAIDENS


everyone has Their own magic

There is no death

so nothing matters

High Style

Flash & forgive me

high button shoes

clean arrangement

messy breeding

love's triumph

everlasting hope & fulfillment

THE AMERICAN NIGHT

for leather accrues
The miracle of the streets
The scents & somgs &
pollens of existence

Shiny blackness
so totally naked she was
Totally un-hung-up

We looked around
lights now on
To see our fellow travellers

Friday, January 17, 2014

Getting Pulled over



  Has anyone ever had major anxiety getting pulled over by a cop? I just was, lol, but it wasn't too bad. Not counting the ticket.  Just thought I'd post this, and if anyone wants to post their worst experience, please do.

Dealing with Anxiety



        Empaths who don't feel  
   By don't, I mean some of us have learned a few tricks so we don't always have to feel our own emotions. I do think that self help tapes were the start of how I began to control my own emotions and how others effect me. But some things never change.

  Story, I worked at a Wal-mart store years after the self help, I  was upset by a woman who was a rude b**** and as she walked away, I told myself I couldn't do anything about it and THAT made me cry. Right there, cashiering, I cried, and I don't know about most Empaths, but I have tried my entire life to stop crying but nothing worked. At age 38 I am better about tearing up. At that point I got angry and cussed at the remaining customers.

  Now, I never get angry, at least not that often, but if I do get angry, that is how it will be. I would recommend that if you are an Empath, you need to learn how to give yourself permission to get mad. I know a man I would say is an Empath who is the same way about anger. Some Empaths I'm sure end up in unhealthy relationships where one person is always testing that anger button. One thing that I'm sure many of us try to do, is hold our emotions back. That will prove an impossibility time and time again, you must start to analyze how you feel, that way you are training your mind to process emotions through thought versus emotionally. It is a long process, but it does help. I know use both the left and right side of my brain equally. At least according to online tests.
  
       Anxiety self help courses
 I think any self help course that deals with anxiety will help with anger also. Because some of us don't get angry, at least we think we don't.  I have read that many Empaths get anxiety in large crowds of people. A self help course on anxiety will help. One more thing, if you are in a stressful situation, no amount of self help or thinking will stop emotional reactions, you must accept that.